So, getting that cute little baby bump was more of a mental challenge for me than others.
I'm 5'2" on a good day with shoes on. I'm also not the skinniest girl in the world. I see posts on facebook and other blogs and think part of the pregnancy journey requires some of those taken-from-the-side cute little baby bump photos. And they are cute....if you are a size 6. However, I had a bit of that baby bump long before I had reason to...and that, my friends, is not cute!
I had Hubby take a side-picture of me at something like 9 weeks and I've not shared it with anyone. My sister-in-law keeps begging me for a pic & has even taken some and sent of herself in order to coax me into it, but I haven't done it.
At the beginning of August, I could tell when I'd go to the store or see people I hadn't seen in a while that people were eyeballing my waistline. It was just like to kind of sly little downward glances that you get when a guy is eye-balling your chest. A couple times I wanted to say, "Hey. I'm up here!" Believe me, I wanted the whole world to know that the extra pudge I was carrying was not due to eating too much ice cream on hot summer nights.
It wasn't until August (about 7 months into pregnancy) that people all of a sudden began saying I looked pregnant. I didn't know whether to take it as a compliment or not when I walked into work one day with a tighter maternity shirt on and a co-worker exclaimed, "WOW! You really look pregnant TODAY!" Whew...at least it was finally obvious!
So, while most girls love to show off that baby bump, I didn't really look like I was pregnant for the longest time and that, my friends, does not help the psyche of a chunky girl!
I don't feel like I did either. Looking back at the photos, I think I did start showing more obviously sooner than I thought, but at the time... I felt like everyone just thought I was gaining weight again. I felt like explaining to people that I was pregnant, not just fat, all the time though. You are definitely not alone with that :) Once I started to OBVIOUSLY show I felt a lot better in a way lol.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say I'm so glad to see you back. I wasn't sure why you weren't blogging, and had been worried. I checked your blog from time to time to see if I'd just missed a new post. Keep the updates coming!
ReplyDeleteI frequent your blog and was very happy that you finally got your BFP. Glad you are back and everything is going well.
ReplyDeleteHi from ICLW. I doubt, if I ever got pregnant, anyone even notice on me.
ReplyDeleteHello from ICLW! Congratulations on getting your bump, and all that it represents.
ReplyDeleteHello from ICLW! Congrats on this pregnancy! It looks like it's been a long road for you! Wishing you all the best!
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Congrats on your pregnancy! In the begining it is abut weird to see people looking, I agree. I also have a bit of a fat roll!
ReplyDeleteAwww well it'll even if you don't like the look of being pg it's worth it, right?
ReplyDeleteCongrats! Glad to read that everything is going well.
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liddy @ the unfair struggle (mfi, speedskating, life)
I definitely understand wishing your baby bump was cuter. I know I felt like that. But, I am so thankful that I took belly shots. And, I'm even more thankful that a dear friend talked me into a belly shot with my belly truly bared. I treasure that.
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