IVF #1 All Over Again

On Tuesday, October 4th, I was still feeling crampy, hungry and tired.  I noticed that there was a little spotting when I went to the bathroom.  I began to panic.  This is exactly what happened with IVF #1 - and even on the same day.  From that point, I was kind of a mess.  The home pregnancy tests were still coming out negative.  Things didn't look good.

On Wed., Oct. 5th, I got up and took another pregnancy test and as I was waiting the 3 minutes to read it, I noticed that there was blood in the toilet....Now isn't that the most ironic awful thing ever?  Of course the test was negative. 

I wasn't due for my beta blood test until the next day.  When I could regain control of myself and my voice, I called my Doc's office to find out what to do.  The nurse told me that I could go ahead and get my beta done early if I wanted because they had to have at least one blood test.  Not only did I want the whole thing over with, but I didn't want to take that giant needle with Progesterone in the behind if I didn't have to.  That would just be salt in the wound, really.

After a staff meeting that day, a couple co-workers asked me how I was feeling.  And that is when I lost it.  I had held it together really well until then.  I told them that I was taking my "lunch" after the meeting to go get my bloodwork done.

The trip to the blood lab was terrible.  I knew what the result was going to be, yet I still had to go through with it - another necessary evil in this process.  I called to get the results a couple hours later and it was, in fact, negative.  I got the final smack in the face in this whole process - a day early!